halo O:-)

used to run to a cyber cafe from dad's office n from der back home.. cudn wait to come online..
halo O:-)
this used to be my hello few months back..
ola :O
this was me surprised..
i used heehee than a hehe..
:D
this was my smile
i made ppl laugh.. or atleast made ppl smile..
the mysterious ever happy chibi with a wierd calmin aura..
content..with a smile on the face that no1 saw..
i was content
i was numb..
but i was content.
wish i had stayed that way..
hi^^
O_O
hehe
^_^
after i opened up..
im not special.. but people have a way of makin u feel like u r sum1..
i wasn worth nething.. but ppl said i made a difference.. heh.. its funny..its...nevermind
i was okies ven i din 'want' nethin.. id becum so selfish..so nosy
i was better ven i nu i had nuthin.. id becum so insecure..
thot y not lets be happy...
thot i really did made a  difference..
believed i mattered
thot i cud really love .. it was all just an illusion.. now broken..
sumtimes ven u say sum1 hates u without actually knowing so.. its bcuz u hate em urself.. ,its sad,.. but same goes for love.
u wud never no how much.. -sigh- nevermind
im dead now.. numb..killed in action finally..err..again lol
still haf them moments.. but they'll pass.. heehee..
never again..
i love pain...but sumtimes it juz hurts..
ola :O u din hear me day that :P