tired, hurt, betrayed by mere words.
not licking its wounds away to keep a reminder of what happens if you let strangers come in close without your claws protruded.
never again it said as it lies in the shade - undisturbed-disturbed by the silence that befalls the undergrowth of his own malice.
pretty soon not far from now, it would disappear, the charred ground burnt by its fiery tears would see the sun, the birds would return and it would be like it was never there... never existed.
oh what a dream come true it must be.
guess im back here..
hey blog..
been a long time ne
had promised myself... that i'll stop with the rants.. the whines.. was working wasn't it..
this is not for u... for who i usually wrote on this.. this is not for u to read..
this is for me.. only me..
goodbye chibi..
goodbye..
im done..
ppl change u.. define u for urself..
lost my faith in the virtual now from ver its so easy to loose sight of sum1
ur real only ven i touch u.. otherwise just a name, a number and an email id.
i aint drowning in tears.. sumn which is surprising even me.. guess i'll just settle with punching the wall till i cant feel my hand..
i'll be fine.. just need to catch my breath
i'll be fine..
good night blog
"maybe if i forced myself to smile.. maybe i'll learn to do it all the time.. maybe then it would all be alright"
flicked it off my frnd's stays msg..
umm.. im gonna try.. maybe i can.. most probably i cant.. im gonna try..
hmm lets see..
thanx.. for lissnin.. bye
why is it that you feel more lonely when at home in front of your friends than you do thinkin about them whilst away. why is it that you feel sad waiting for them to answer you more than you do away, with no contact what so ever. why is it that you even try. dont you know better already? why is it that you end up writin stuff up here where every1 who doesn need to read it does.
maan.. i din used to feel sorry for me ever b4 .. now cant stop it.. juz leave me alone.. lost cause now.. cant go about a day without muttering i wanna die..
last night had a wierd dream.. was in some store.. buyin sum stuff.. with mum besides me.. mum and the shop owner got in sum arguement dunno wat abt tho.. but they suddenly stopped.. and started staring at me.. apparently worried.. o.0
n den a warm sensation over mah lips..n in mah mouth.. wow that was a lotta blood.. lol.. the store owner going inside the bathroom trying to lock the door. n mah mom holding on to the door.. keepin it from being shut yelling" do sumthing..u better do sumn" rofl.. funny site.. datz ven i woke up..
2nd weekend of january.. guess i wont be forgetting this 1 netime soon..never felt so alone..cant laugh abt it this time tho..uh thot id revel in it.. had loads of free time.. too much actually.. after days.. felt that stabbing feeling again.. made me yell out the silent way i used to.. til tears came out .. lol.. yea.. i cry ..hehe.. n to think i cudn laugh abt it XD..
not a single day has passed ven i hafn said i wanna die.. n den smile abt it.. im pathetic sheesh.. rantin here.. lol..
was juz thinkin.. finally know the happiest memory of my life..
hehe.. back ven i was needed.. iss all good.. im glad they haf ppl..
about me:
always hav been always will be..a loser.. accepted de fact recently n now look ^^ new world
am a bonafide moron..ne1 in there right mind.. wanting to protect their
minds..frem gaining stupidity...stay away...iss for ur own good...
and your friends are all watching
you fall, I think a funny gag would be to
pretend you were swimming.
~ Jack Handey
You make believe that nothing is wrong until you're cryin'
You make believe life is so long until you're dyin'......
~Limp Bizkit
"I could while away the hours,
Conferrin' with the flowers,
Consultin' with the rain,
And my head I'd be scratchin'
While my thoughts were busy hatchin',
If I only had a brain!"
~scarecrow
There are 3 kinds of people:
Those who can count,
and those who cannot.
~George Carlin
if u dont smile.. ppl think sumthings wrong with u... if u keep on smiling.. ppl know ders sumthing wrong with u..
juz cuz u haf ample free time to be with ppl.. dun mean u a good pal.. juz means ven de world sleeps.. ya stay awake.. beggin fer a sound
wish i was for juz a night..
wish i wasnt me..
wish i had a reason..
to believe ... in me..
crying out to no1..
wish i cud see...
wish i cud wish for..
a single wish..for me..
laughin out in silence..
wish i cud breathe..
in the middle of sumver..
looking for a place to be..
keep runnin in circles..
lookin for a place to sleep..
drownin in the sorrow..
wish i cud juz be..
falling in the shadow..
too bright for open eyes..
wish i cud wish for..
a single wish for me..
anchored on the corner..
of a big wide open smile..
wish i learned to drown..
instead of holdin on..
wish i was for juz 1 night..
to see the stars go by..
wish i was for juz 1 night..
to watch em wave goodbye..
used to run to a cyber cafe from dad's office n from der back home.. cudn wait to come online..
halo O:-)
this used to be my hello few months back..
ola :O
this was me surprised..
i used heehee than a hehe..
:D
this was my smile
i made ppl laugh.. or atleast made ppl smile..
the mysterious ever happy chibi with a wierd calmin aura..
content..with a smile on the face that no1 saw..
i was content
i was numb..
but i was content.
wish i had stayed that way..
hi^^
O_O
hehe
^_^
after i opened up..
im not special.. but people have a way of makin u feel like u r sum1..
i wasn worth nething.. but ppl said i made a difference.. heh.. its funny..its...nevermind
i was okies ven i din 'want' nethin.. id becum so selfish..so nosy
i was better ven i nu i had nuthin.. id becum so insecure..
thot y not lets be happy...
thot i really did made a difference..
believed i mattered
thot i cud really love .. it was all just an illusion.. now broken..
sumtimes ven u say sum1 hates u without actually knowing so.. its bcuz u hate em urself.. ,its sad,.. but same goes for love.
u wud never no how much.. -sigh- nevermind
im dead now.. numb..killed in action finally..err..again lol
still haf them moments.. but they'll pass.. heehee..
never again..
i love pain...but sumtimes it juz hurts..
ola :O u din hear me day that :P
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